I’m not broken, so don’t try to fix me.

TiffanyApril 27, 2015January 17, 2016Acceptance of Needs, healing relationships, poetry & prose, shamebeing heard, healing, poetry & prose

Right now it may appear
that I’m broken,
with a heart lined
by frayed edges.

The tears are quickly followed
by the sobs that choke my throat.
Sometimes it’s hard for me to breathe.
My insides feel like the are going to
burst forth as my world is turned inside out.

Right now I see my suffering
makes you feel uncomfortable.
Know I am, too.
Right now I know you want to
tell me what to do.
To tell me what I need to do
to see this all differently.

I know you want to fix the problem.
And to me, right now, that makes me feel
like I’m the problem.
Like I’m broken.

Right now the last thing I need
is for you to try to fix me.
I’m not broken.
Even though it appears and feels like I am.

Right now I need someone to listen.
To really hear me.
Even if the retching sobs prevent me
from forming words that can escape
my throat in any meaningful way.

Right now I need you to hold the space for me.
To hold me and comfort me,
wrapping me in your arms
as the sadness,
anger,
guilt
and shame
leave my being.
Hold me in your arms;
let me follow the sound
of your heart beat back to my own.

Right now I need you
to be a witness to my transformation.
A witness to my strength;
even as I fold.
You’ve seen it before.
To witness my unbroken-ness.

Right now I need you to be silent
and neutral in your support.
Later when the storms have passed
we can talk about it.

Right now I’m not broken,
so don’t try to fix me.

Namaste.

Published by Tiffany

Writing out my thoughts has helped me to gain a new perspective of myself. In sharing these writings, it is my hope to help others to better understand themselves. It is my belief that with each of us who chooses this path of greater understanding of thy self, that it inspires others to do the same. This building momentum is the force that drives me to share, for in my vulnerability, I find my strength. I believe that you can also find yours there. ~~~In reading some of my posts, you will see that growth is not always pretty. It is in breaking apart and coming undone that a seed sprouts and breaks free of its own captivity. It is also out of mud that the lotus blossoms. ~~~Please join me in seeing the beauty of growth within the deconstruction of our limiting beliefs. ~~T.C. View more posts

7 thoughts on “I’m not broken, so don’t try to fix me.”

Dear Tiffany, I wish I had started reading your blog from the beginning. This is simply the most beautiful thing I have ever read. Please know that I won’t. Hugs and quiet understanding, ❤ Ken

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tiffanybeingfree says:

April 30, 2016 at 8:35 am

Thank you, Ken! ❤️

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So beautiful I’m in tears– I hope it’s ok that I shared this blog on my page? I’m still really new to this and don’t understand the legistics of how it all works, I just hit the share on my page like I do with FB! (LoL)
Thank you for sharing your vulnerability in what you were experiencing… I needed to hear what you said today, right now in this moment.

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Tiffany says:

November 1, 2016 at 8:36 am

Thank you for sharing how this helped you. Yes, please feel free to share! Honestly I’m not sure of the etiquette, myself! Most bloggers appreciate the sharing of their words, from my experience.
Thank you for the reblog!

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1. letnblog says:
  
  November 1, 2016 at 9:56 am
  
  You are most welcome! And it’s a huge relief to know I’m not alone on this whole what you can and can’t or shouldn’t do when it comes to blogging!
  Again, thank you for helping me see through some things by your openness in your blog. Have a beautiful day
  
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2. Tiffany says:
  
  November 2, 2016 at 7:11 pm
  
  I’m grateful to be of service.
  
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