Today I am Grateful

Today I am Grateful:

For the beauty that surrounds me.

For the Universe that smiles on me every day (though sometimes I question its love).

For the grace that fills my open heart.

For the breath that moves like wind through my lungs.

For the will to carry on, even when I don’t wanna.

For the body that carries me. For the Earth who nourishes me, supports me and loves me for who I truly am.

For all of the relationships in my life, as each one reflects for me something that I would scarce see in myself on my own. Even the ones that I felt hurt by, for they are special gifts within themselves.

For the sparkle in my children’s eyes and the beauty that is uniquely theirs.

For their father who loves them enough to disarm himself by no longer battling with me.

For the families on both sides who support us in the dissolution of our 15 year marriage, for they could have chosen to hold us in the energy of despair.

Yes, today I am grateful:

For the many blessings I receive.

For the gifts I give others by my presence.

For the rain that brings the rainbows.

For the rivers that bring water.

For every penny in my bank account.

For every bill I pay on time.

For every Starbucks Vanilla Soy Latte that I enjoy.

For the pain that shows me where I resist love.

For the awareness that, even as an adult, I fear so much:  my own power, being abandoned, being overlooked,  being fully seen, being vulnerable, being wrong,  being right,  and sometimes just being.

For the places that I still hold myself in self-loathing,  distrust, unforgiveness, and commit acts of self-flagellation.

It is by being grateful that I open my heart a little bit more to myself.  The more I can open my heart for me,  the more light I can help to shine on the rest of the world.  By lighting my beacon,  I help others overcome the obstacles to lighting their own lights.

For this power to love myself more, and to help you to love yourself more, I am grateful.

Namaste.