My Dearest One,
In my quest for something greater, better, and more fulfilling, I ignored you. Instead of hearing your words, I turned to you a deaf ear and gave my attention to everyone (anyone) else.
In my quest for love that was more fulfilling, I ignored the love you offered to me, love that was without condition. Instead, I sought it from those who knew not how to love (or at least not me).
In my quest for new experiences, new places, new people, I let you sit on the shelf and gather dust in the shadows of the needs of others. Instead of turning away from me, you just waited patiently.
My own turning away has gone on for far, far too long. So it is now that I choose to sit with you. It is now that I choose to open my ear and finally hear you. It is now that I choose to open the door when you knock. It is now that I choose to invite you in, and even to seek out your company. It is now that I choose to see you. It is now that I choose to begin to see myself as you see me.
Thank you for not abandoning me, even as I had abandoned you.
Thank you for being there and remaining true to me, even when I sought love elsewhere (anywhere, everywhere but from you).
Thank you, my heart, for still beating in my chest when I thought I could not go one step further. Thank you for remaining warm when all else felt cold, unwelcoming.
Thank you, my center, for remaining balanced and stable when all else seemed to fail.
Please accept my deepest (and most heartfelt) apologies for not protecting you and, instead, giving you away to those who knew not what they were receiving (or who didn’t even see it). Please know that it was with impatience, and not your best interest, that I so often offered you up in sacrifice (something sacred). Well, now I am learning, through these experiences that you are gold and deserve better. Much better.
May The Universe bless us both as I learn to live closer to you, with an open ear and seeing eyes. May I learn to allow you to lead me more in the dance of life, instead of me continuing to attempt to force the flow, only stepping on your toes. May I learn to respect myself as you respect me, to love myself as you love me. Together, we are complete. Thank you, my heart, for keeping the light on.
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