Dying for Approval

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Find yourself first…like yourself first…love yourself FIRST…& friendship & love will naturally find YOU.

― Mandy Hale, The Single Woman: Life, Love, and a Dash of Sass

One of the main reasons that I took a FaceBook hiatus is that I realized how much I was tied to the “like” of my posts. It was becoming painful for me to not receive the feedback I so desperately desired. The more likes I received, the more that I wanted and craved to get my “fix.” With the ego, the more that is given, the more that it wants.

In seeking the approval of others, I shortchanged myself. I devalued my own ability to meet my own needs. I devalued myself and my ability to love. I placed the approval of others higher than my own.

So I took a FB break. The first 2-3 days were tough. I think I may have had shakes a few times, it was a blur.

For nearly 3 weeks I did not log on at all. And even with my return, I have logged on three times over the course of 4 days. Usually, I would have logged on (easily) 3 times in an hour to check my messenger feeds, before my hiatus. Now, I’m finding, that I’m not reading those either (sorry, friends, please don’t take it personally).

It helps that I have not reactivated FB or messenger on my phone. I already feel like my life is busy and hectic with full-time work, and being a single mom (even if it’s w/ 50% shared custody).

What has changed?

What I’m finding is that I now choose to validate myself. I also send more text messages to my friends vs FB status posts or using messenger. My tolerance for others has also increased. One person who use to grate my nerves just a few months ago, I find that I am more relaxed around, less irritated. She has not changed, I have. My perspective of myself has changed. Thus the perspective of my world has changed.

“Start changing yourself if you want to change the life around you.”
Mahatma Ghandi

I have even recently noticed that things I would have posted before as status updates, or pictures, I have not even thought about posting. So some of my friends might be in for a surprise when we next meet =)

Namaste

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