For each bit of me that wants to move forward through the process of my journey of self-discovery, there are times when there is an ounce-per-ounce bit of anti-desire that resists each step.
While there are times when my feet are light and I am able to move by leaps and bounds, there are other times where it feels like each step is taken in quick sand. It seems that the quick sands arrive when I am closest to reaching another degree of understanding.
It can be a challenge to surrender into the sinking feeling when the density comes ’round. After all, I was feeling so good when I was moving forward in my lessons. Everything felt light and doable. Even on the most difficult days, I felt capable.
Now I find myself trapped in a series of densities that seem to have me moving backwards. I know from experience that once I am through them (or they are through with me), I am able to catapult forward in a way that almost makes my head spin it happens so fast.
For now, I may as well enjoy the scenery, as I’ve learned that fighting the density only causes me to feel exhausted, doubtful and short of breath. I have also learned that these blocks are part of the process, as the lesson must be unlocked before I am able to move forward unfettered.
So it is in quiet faith that I sit in silence and wait. I return with a renewed zeal to my spiritual tools: journaling, gratitude, meditation, self-care, prayer and feeling my feelings. When I do, the quick sands begin to release me from their grasp.
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