There are things that each of us does not want to see or feel about ourselves and our lives. We push it away, sweep it under the rug or put our heads in the sand rather than seeing it for what it is. What we resist (or deny) persists, regardless of what we do to ignore it or push it away. These fears control us, driving our daily choices when we allow them to exist.
Recently, I have been struggling against myself. Not wanting to do my usual self-care routines, I sat in resistance which was just building on itself. Rolling away, pushing, and screaming, I moved away from the things that open my heart. It was when I stopped fighting that I was reminded to love, to accept, to surrender into the “dark” parts of myself that were seeking attention and affection.
Ironically, the very cure to the resistance is surrender; acceptance. It is a practice that takes awareness, valor and stillness to perform.
This is a practice. With each part into which we surrender, we grow stronger. How counter-intuitive it can be to gain strength by laying down the sword, removing the battle armor and opening our hearts, to our own worst enemies: ourselves.
How ironic that the very person we resist loving is the very person whom we need to love the most: ourselves.
Please join me in letting the light in, bringing the darkness to the surface to see it for all that it is: illusions and lies about ourselves that someone else told us and that we carried forth.
Letting the light in bit by lovely bit. That’s where it’s at.
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