I didn’t say yes to later say no.
Now the dissolution has been finalized.
Unresolved issues bubble to the surface.
Gone is the promise of so many dreams.
16 years of marriage; 14 celebrated.
Like water held in your hand; all escaped.
Feeling all alone.
No shoulder to cry on now.
Hard to look upon the shiny Rockwellian newsreels
without pangs of guilt and shame.
Seeking to live the dream once sought.
Waking from a night of tumultuous sleep,
eyes red from dried up tears.
What happened to all of those years?
The relationship long gone,
Yet the dream still lingers.
The desire for connection still present.
So I sit with the shame,
allowing it to envelop me like a shroud.
With each moment of focus, the threads dissolve.
It is then that I begin to see again,
I am strong again, in me.
Now to find solace,
in the lessons I have learned.
So that I do not repeat them.
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