I didn’t say yes to later say no.
Now the dissolution has been finalized.
Unresolved issues bubble to the surface.
Gone is the promise of so many dreams.
16 years of marriage; 14 celebrated.
Like water held in your hand; all escaped.
Sleepless nights.
Feeling all alone.
No shoulder to cry on now.
Hard to look upon the shiny Rockwellian newsreels
without pangs of guilt and shame.
Seeking to live the dream once sought.
Waking from a night of tumultuous sleep,
eyes red from dried up tears.
What happened to all of those years?
The relationship long gone,
Yet the dream still lingers.
The desire for connection still present.
So I sit with the shame,
allowing it to envelop me like a shroud.
With each moment of focus, the threads dissolve.
It is then that I begin to see again,
more clearly.
I am strong again, in me.
Now to find solace,
in the lessons I have learned.
So that I do not repeat them.
Namaste.
Photo by Serge Bertasius Photography at freedigitalphotos.net
You have had some beautiful pieces today. Sorry though about the source of inspiration. If not today, you will rise and become strong again…stronger than before.
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Thank you for noticing! I feel stronger already. Usually I schedule my posts out (I wrote at least 7 complete posts yesterday alone). Sometimes by the time they’ve posted, I’ve already emotionally moved on (or deeper).
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Ahhh, I can see we have things in common already. 🙂 I’m still scrolling through my reader but your last two posts were really, really good. I wish I could express my feeling as succinctly and beautifully as you do.
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Thank you for your kind support! Interesting you feel my writing is succinct, as I often feel it is awkward. I publish it to get it out of my face. Lol. Maybe that’s what keeps me coming back to the same threads.
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