Divorce: Emotional Aftermath

TiffanyJanuary 3, 2016January 3, 2016poetry & prose, shamedepression, divorce, guilt, marriage, meditation, religion, shame, spirituality

I didn’t say yes to later say no.
Now the dissolution has been finalized.
Unresolved issues bubble to the surface.

Gone is the promise of so many dreams.
16 years of marriage; 14 celebrated.
Like water held in your hand; all escaped.

Sleepless nights.
Feeling all alone.
No shoulder to cry on now.

Hard to look upon the shiny Rockwellian newsreels
without pangs of guilt and shame.
Seeking to live the dream once sought.

Waking from a night of tumultuous sleep,
eyes red from dried up tears.
What happened to all of those years?

The relationship long gone,
Yet the dream still lingers.
The desire for connection still present.

So I sit with the shame,
allowing it to envelop me like a shroud.
With each moment of focus, the threads dissolve.

It is then that I begin to see again,
more clearly.
I am strong again, in me.

Now to find solace,
in the lessons I have learned.
So that I do not repeat them.

Namaste.

Photo by Serge Bertasius Photography at freedigitalphotos.net

Published by Tiffany

Writing out my thoughts has helped me to gain a new perspective of myself. In sharing these writings, it is my hope to help others to better understand themselves. It is my belief that with each of us who chooses this path of greater understanding of thy self, that it inspires others to do the same. This building momentum is the force that drives me to share, for in my vulnerability, I find my strength. I believe that you can also find yours there. ~~~In reading some of my posts, you will see that growth is not always pretty. It is in breaking apart and coming undone that a seed sprouts and breaks free of its own captivity. It is also out of mud that the lotus blossoms. ~~~Please join me in seeing the beauty of growth within the deconstruction of our limiting beliefs. ~~T.C. View more posts

5 thoughts on “Divorce: Emotional Aftermath”

You have had some beautiful pieces today. Sorry though about the source of inspiration. If not today, you will rise and become strong again…stronger than before.

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tiffanybeingfree says:

January 3, 2016 at 5:55 pm

Thank you for noticing! I feel stronger already. Usually I schedule my posts out (I wrote at least 7 complete posts yesterday alone). Sometimes by the time they’ve posted, I’ve already emotionally moved on (or deeper).

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1. Michael says:
  
  January 3, 2016 at 6:06 pm
  
  Ahhh, I can see we have things in common already. 🙂 I’m still scrolling through my reader but your last two posts were really, really good. I wish I could express my feeling as succinctly and beautifully as you do.
  
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2. tiffanybeingfree says:
  
  January 3, 2016 at 6:24 pm
  
  Thank you for your kind support! Interesting you feel my writing is succinct, as I often feel it is awkward. I publish it to get it out of my face. Lol. Maybe that’s what keeps me coming back to the same threads.
  
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