Numbers: The Erasure

“three standard deviations”

i am the normal
to your standard deviation of 3.
i love your flirtations, yet
they trigger a lot of “unworthy” in me.

i fear your love,
your affection,
your adoration.
like water poured on rock,
all is lost to evaporation.

~~~~

erasure

since before we separated,
parted in the night,
i’ve been trying to erase you.
all images removed from each
social media site.
wishing it were so easy
to do this in my mind.

in letting go of the good
and the bad memories,
i see now that i was
also working to erase me.
twenty years of my life
almost
down
the
drain.

now i do my best to
embrace it all, so i can
once again
embrace
the
all
that
i
long
to
realize
again.
1.28.2016

Published by Tiffany

Writing out my thoughts has helped me to gain a new perspective of myself. In sharing these writings, it is my hope to help others to better understand themselves. It is my belief that with each of us who chooses this path of greater understanding of thy self, that it inspires others to do the same. This building momentum is the force that drives me to share, for in my vulnerability, I find my strength. I believe that you can also find yours there. ~~~In reading some of my posts, you will see that growth is not always pretty. It is in breaking apart and coming undone that a seed sprouts and breaks free of its own captivity. It is also out of mud that the lotus blossoms. ~~~Please join me in seeing the beauty of growth within the deconstruction of our limiting beliefs. ~~T.C.

2 thoughts on “Numbers: The Erasure

  1. Great post Tiffany, I so enjoy seeing moments where you have breakthroughs☺️ I’m sure you have a lot of amazing memories. It is a shame to pretend like those never existed just to avoid the painful memories. It is all part of your beautiful and unique story😘

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    1. Part of not wanting to remember is the desire that is still present. In erasing the memories, I wanted to erase the desire, too. Thank you for the words of support!
      There’s another big breakthrough rolling out tomorrow.

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