this is a picture of my son from 3 years ago this week.
the innocence and Peter Pan feeling you get from this image is true. i miss those big brown eyes, filled with wonder and mischief (well, maybe not so much missing all of his mischief)
sad to say that with divorce his eyes are less sunny more partly cloudy. maybe it’s also aging and growing that he no longer exudes this mercurial energy. He has not lost it all, it is still very much there, just beneath a thin veneer. sometimes it can be encouraged to emerge, other times he hides, burying it well.
his name means light giving, the envy of many Star Wars fans…
his middle name means protector. A true Braveheart who even at two showed this is true.
fluffy, soft cheeks he still has, kissable in any weather.
slowly resisting his mother’s affections,
growing now into his own.
with each passing day independence grown.
still more dependent than at the same age his sister, but equally willed strong.
who can fault him, have you met the woman from whom he was born?
His sign of Gemini is ruled by the messenger God Mercury,
whose attributes flow to those also born of Virgo:
who when in balance are ever changing, malleable,
with a strong sense of youth. Warning: take care!
Mercury is also a trickster; taken to light thievery.
I treasure when he chooses to shower me with his love,
going to miss the days when he no longer says,
“I love you, mama” out of (seemingly) no where,
kissing my face, reaching for and kissing my hands.
(he is going to be a true lover, as hand kissing
is not something he learned from his father,
the only man he’s seen kiss his mother).
I pray that he may only give his heart to the most deserving women.
it will be interesting to watch this young man unfold
in the coming years.
hoping that he will spare his mother too many tears…
yeah, who the fuck am I kidding, there?