I.
to me hell would be doing the same thing everyday.
looking at the same four walls, looking at and creating the same TPS Reports
having the same conversations and arguments with the same people.
constant data entry – please stick a needle in my eye.
at some point, I seek out the edges.
this also means that I often get cut.
What is the price I am willing to pay for a life unfixed?
how far am I willing to go?
options, I must have them. If they are not there, I will create them.
Along the edges, that’s where I grow. Much like a tree.
Now I ask myself, where is my boundary?
It is unfixed…
II.
Basically she told me that I was too independent. There was nothing for a man to fix. “He needs to feel needed,” she said.
Well, fuck that! I’m not un-fixing myself to help a man feel better about himself. Besides, if one looks closely enough, one will see the places where I am frayed.
Sometimes I crave the solidity of a man when my backbone feels too soft to support me. Other times, that’s the last thing I need: someone telling me what to do.
What I thought was a fixed “s”, I now am beginning to see is more of a “switch.” Yet another way in which I am unfixed. Another way in which I seek life on the edges… unfixed
now a beautiful speech by Maynard James Keenan. I highly recommend you listen if you agree with the statement that life is lived on the edges.
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Image: ESA/Hubble
unfiltered from the heart 
Love those last two lines “… you do not need a smaller crown, you need a man with bigger hands.”
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Thank you, Miriam! I also appreciate that last line and need it tattooed somewhere to remind me! ❤️❤️
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Ahhh, sexy Tiffany…welcome to the edge. You have friends here. From the edge you can see into the abyss…don’t stare too long. Instead, turn inward and know yourself at this distant point. At each point on the edge, there is a counterpoint at 180 degrees. Explore and understand yourself in both spaces. Through the tension of your opposing edges, you may find it balances the center. I may have pulled this from a fortune cookie, so take it for what it’s worth 🙂
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Sexy Michael, your words resonate deeply and I appreciate the sentiment, regardless of where you may or may not have pulled it from! I hope you were able to view the video. It is rich!
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Just watched it…I like his philosophy. 🙂 I thought about erotic tension from the edges as he spoke and liked that he expressed this tension can be found in many places as we our goals with passion…on the edge.
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Yes, it was something that deeply resonated with me, as well. The imagery was also powerful. Glad you enjoyed it! It was powerful for me in seeing another level of why I need to let go of the restrictions I place on myself.
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This is so beautiful (wish I could find a different word -but it fits)!! It sounds like
your personal recipe for a life well lived. You are incredibly special and your Warrior is gonna have to be incredibly special too. Here’s to the future, 🍷🍷 frayed edges, sharp edges and everything else that it brings! 😆 ❤Ken
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Thank you, Ken! Yes, I am well aware that he will need to be special, because only will someone who is unique be able to understand the enigma of Tiffany. Haha! ❤️
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Amazing. Smiles.
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Thank you! Return smiles.
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This is beautiful! Just because we have done the work of bettering and growing, does not mean we don’t need another, a person with which our soul always seeks the edges. I am much the same. I will always, no matter how much I love in the moment, seek life’s edges. And I will always need M for support…and to support!
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Kay, thank you for this! Yes, I agree completely. I am pleased to know you understand. I find the pattern of responders interesting…those with whom I often resonate the most. ❤️
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You’re welcome! Makes sense to me!💜
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This screams to me! The essence of who I am. I need to live on the edge of experience – to feel the battle lines. I can’t stay in the mundane. I would die there.
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Rita, of course you are here with me on this! Glad it speaks to you & I hope you have time to appreciate the video, too. ❤️
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I will – as soon as we hit the road
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I just want to… fist pump! 😁 Speaks to the very core of my being. So beautiful. Love it. Thank you for sharing.x
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Thank you for appreciating and sharing! Fist bump returned!!!
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