Unfixed: Embracing the Edges

I.

to me hell would be doing the same thing everyday.
looking at the same four walls, looking at and creating the same TPS Reports
having the same conversations and arguments with the same people.
constant data entry – please stick a needle in my eye.

at some point, I seek out the edges.
this also means that I often get cut.
What is the price I am willing to pay for a life unfixed?
how far am I willing to go?

options, I must have them. If they are not there, I will create them.
Along the edges, that’s where I grow. Much like a tree.
Now I ask myself, where is my boundary?
It is unfixed…

II.

Basically she told me that I was too independent. There was nothing for a man to fix. “He needs to feel needed,” she said.

Well, fuck that! I’m not un-fixing myself to help a man feel better about himself. Besides, if one looks closely enough, one will see the places where I am frayed.

Sometimes I crave the solidity of a man when my backbone feels too soft to support me. Other times, that’s the last thing I need: someone telling me what to do.

What I thought was a fixed “s”, I now am beginning to see is more of a “switch.” Yet another way in which I am unfixed. Another way in which I seek life on the edges…  unfixed

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now a beautiful speech by Maynard James Keenan. I highly recommend you listen if you agree with the statement that life is lived on the edges.

Image: Google

 

Image: ESA/Hubble

18 thoughts on “Unfixed: Embracing the Edges

  1. Ahhh, sexy Tiffany…welcome to the edge. You have friends here. From the edge you can see into the abyss…don’t stare too long. Instead, turn inward and know yourself at this distant point. At each point on the edge, there is a counterpoint at 180 degrees. Explore and understand yourself in both spaces. Through the tension of your opposing edges, you may find it balances the center. I may have pulled this from a fortune cookie, so take it for what it’s worth 🙂

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      • Just watched it…I like his philosophy. 🙂 I thought about erotic tension from the edges as he spoke and liked that he expressed this tension can be found in many places as we our goals with passion…on the edge.

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      • Yes, it was something that deeply resonated with me, as well. The imagery was also powerful. Glad you enjoyed it! It was powerful for me in seeing another level of why I need to let go of the restrictions I place on myself.

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  2. This is so beautiful (wish I could find a different word -but it fits)!! It sounds like
    your personal recipe for a life well lived. You are incredibly special and your Warrior is gonna have to be incredibly special too. Here’s to the future, 🍷🍷 frayed edges, sharp edges and everything else that it brings! 😆 ❤Ken

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  3. This is beautiful! Just because we have done the work of bettering and growing, does not mean we don’t need another, a person with which our soul always seeks the edges. I am much the same. I will always, no matter how much I love in the moment, seek life’s edges. And I will always need M for support…and to support!

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