the closed heart opens

threats, real or imagined
rejection, abandonment, indiscretions
remaining closed, the heart’s keep.
while the courtyard may appear open
it is enclosed by castle walls and guards.

sleek black crows feast
on the scraps
unworthy of the cook’s vat
the macabre scene
painful for eyes to see
a loving heart weeps.

choosing now a life unrestricted
walls bend and fold
as the keep no longer a
loving heart can hold.
a heart fills the space
no longer limited in time & place

for what is love
but not infinite?
opening to a new reality
shedding the indignant
once again, opening within
to possibilities & infinity.

image: Red Umbrella by Leonid Afremov

13 thoughts on “the closed heart opens

  1. Tiffany, these words are beautiful, full of hope and possibility, they catch in my throat. Unrestricted, free to be Tiffany! Hard to say everything I feel whenI read this, Peace to you my precious sister! ❤️❤️❤️ Barney

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  2. Love the creative analogy running this and the wonderful, vibrant image…well done! 🙂 I wonder…. Our soul’s capacity is infinite and flows towards toward the perfection of archetypes (e.g. Anima/Animus). The sheer power of infinite love projected on a mortal man or woman is not infinitely sustainable by the person receiving the projection. I believe there is a balance in experiencing love in reality (in a durable sense across time and space) while also being able to celebrate your soul’s divine projection of Anima/Animus in a dreamlike way. There is a balance. A finite mortal cannot infinitely withstand the power and force of soul projection. In my humble opinion, that window is 6 – 18 months before burnout, disillusionment, and the raising of walls. Writing and creating is one way to celebrate the infinite love and passion of our soul. Knowing we are doing this rather than expecting someone to actually fulfill these divine spaces, I think, is a big step towards personal fulfillment and happiness. It certainly reduces the amount of “cosmic drama” we all place around interactions with “soul” mates.

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    • Michael, I greatly appreciate your sharing of your experiences and insights here. While there is a muse, he is actually my mirror. In the meditation that preceded this piece, it was my own heart that was closed to myself. With each opening of my heart into new possibilities, the one I love more and more is me. He is showing me *indirectly* where I both loathe and love myself. I am the person I see when I look in the mirror of anyone else’s face.
      It’s still hard to know where things will go. I cannot hold my breath as there are perceived obstacles that must be consciously chosen to be overcome. When I begin to feel sad about this, I remember these are things I cannot change. So they can either be accepted or not…. “What is meant for me will never miss me…” is my second reminder. So I’m doing my best to let go of the hope that things may change…
      Meanwhile, I’m having fun learning about and loving myself through my muse. I am also learning that regardless of the type of relationship, there are zero guarantees…so the person I’m left with, and will always be left with at the end of the day is me. So I better learn to love her…infinitely. 😘 may we each find the love we seek.

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  3. You are a beautiful (inner and outer) woman, Tiffany and my apologies if I take pieces out of context. I was really drawn to you, your thoughts, and your journey early on…and I’m hooked! 🙂 You are such a bright woman with strong motivation to succeed in life. You care for people and your patients…your family. You give far more than many, many people do of themselves. You hold yourself to a very high level and, I suspect, demand far more of yourself than you would ever expect from others. It is great to see you enjoying and nurturing some self compassion and love…truly appreciating what a unique and special gift you are. <3:-*

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    • There is not a need to apologize, Michael! We each interpret things in life based on our own experiences…hard to not to, right?! Plus you have some insider knowledge, so I understand where you are coming from. I appreciate that you’re looking out for my interests and helping me in my search… You have shared some beautiful compliments and observations here and I’m humbled by your sharing yourself in this way. Yes. I’m learning to appreciate myself. And yes, it is very nice to have your acknowledgment. Thank you for following and your interest! 😘

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    • Yes. Tearing down walls feels like we’re tearing off our own flesh. Glad to hear that this work speaks to you! We need more people willing to do this work, regularly and without haste. Yet it can be a challenge to tear at ones own flesh. ❤️

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