being okay ~ with not being okay

the pain is in the resistance. we block our own paths to freedom when we resist the reality of now. pushing away the emotions, stuffing them down, brushing them under the rug and running away (by staying constantly busy), we blind ourselves to our truths ~ and the very path to our independence from suffering.

one of my biggest weight loss secrets is learning to love myself. the next one is that when i became angry at my fat, instead of wishing it away, i imagined myself being surrounded by the fat. immersing myself in the very things i did not like about myself, being okay with the parts of myself i was NOT okay with, i was able to see the path to freedom from suffering: acceptance.

regardless of what we don’t want to feel: lonely, forgotten, abandoned, rejected, indebted, unhappy, angry, afraid, sad or even horny-as-hell, the more we push away the things we do not want to feel, the more these energies align and build seemingly against us and our wishes. just as a child throwing a temper tantrum longs for our attention and love, these aspects of ourselves long for our attention and acceptance. when we deny any aspect of ourselves, we are abandoning ourselves…

often the only path is through the valley of the shadows of death. if we can see the shadows for what they are, the absence of light, then and only then can we be free from the fear of them.by going into the valley and shining the light of our truth on the things that we fear, we can be free of these fears.

namaste

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10 thoughts on “being okay ~ with not being okay

  1. This is exactly where I am, in the middle of this. It’s been rocky and turbulent as of late. Anger bubbling up that I’m not happy about but I’m beginning to see. Mine is a journey of self- discovery, acceptance and finally the forgiveness I so desperately want and need.
    You are so right! I’m slowly coming to realize that this is a continual life-long process I’m entering into. Somewhere along the way I completely lost myself and i think this is where the anger stems from. Can’t thank you enough for this, it has brought much needed clarity. I’m also beginning to understand just how much hard work you have done.
    Have a Wicked Good, Restful, Peaceful, Rest of the weekend!! 😜❤️ Barn

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