The humility of forgiveness 

 

In my heart space within meditation,
all I could see was her face
suddenly appearing just in front of mine
without warning; a surprise.

My loving & innocent inner child was the first to respond
hugging her and loving her maternal energy.
Soon the wounded side of me woke up,
attempted to buck, but the innocent lamb had already won.

In just a few moments, memories flashed through my mind’s drive.
The steamy hot shower after she found me
his sins upon my skin. She tried to wash away the shame
it was me who wanted to go down the drain.

The adult me felt the pain of her suffering:
the uncertainty, the fears, her tears.
Through my own suffering of such things
I could now understand her pain.

This did not change who was chosen as
the sacrificial lamb in this scenario.
The blood of my innocence still shed to this
day in the tears rolling down my cheeks in many ways.

She feared then many of the things I fear today.
In that moment of recognition I was able to forgive her.
I then brought him in, his face less clear as if
through a blurry lens. I forgave him too.

On a roll, I brought in others who have in similar
situations tried to take of my blood. My innocence. My trust,
a pound of my flesh for their lust.
The names too long to list…

After each in line was given some time
in the warmth of my forgiveness.
I asked the void, “Now who else?”
The last to be forgiven?

Myself.

Namaste & Metta. Please, let’s make this world a better place! Learn to forgive others & yourself

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  1. Yes when you are a child forgiveness is meted out right away. If you look at children they fight, they hit they punch but they are best friends the next minute. It would benefit us to hold that inner child as you have written about for forgiveness as adults are less likely to forgive. Not to forgive the poison sits inside of you festering. Powerful poem. Sometimes forgiveness has to be done many times for the one offence towards oneself and to forgive oneself sometimes can be the hardest. Be well.

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    1. Thank you, Joseph! I completely agree with you, forgiveness is an ongoing process. I also believe we forget to forgive ourselves, that we also need that self-gifted grace 🙂 and yes, it can be a bit of a challenge to give to oneself.
      May you also be well! ❤

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