For several weeks now I have been stuck in the wrong story. There are some major shifts in my work schedule that have been gnawing at me. While I have worked through several aspects of my own anger and sadness, and am feeling more neutral now than I was when this all started, I still find myself resisting – and resentful of – the looming changes.
Negotiation and rationalization with management have not changed their decision; which was first presented to me as if it were an option. This change is going to happen whether I want it to or not. Right now it only affects me (stomps ground in protest). So now it’s up to me to decide how I want to see this situation. Fighting it is just wearing me out and frustrating me further. This is not an effective way to live and work.
After explaining the crux of my issues with this change the man I’m dating suggested that I rewrite the story to be one that is more acceptable to me and that includes how this change includes meeting the needs of the clinic to see more patients. So this is the first draft of my rewrite. Know that a few moments ago, hot tears flowed down my cheeks in protest of all of this; the toughest surrender in weeks. After several minutes of procrastination, breathing through my emotions and a blank page glaring back at me, I began to write the following words:
By moving from a 60/30-minute schedule to a 40-minute schedule, more clients will be able to be seen during my workday. This will shorten the wait list and the number of days or weeks that patients need to wait to be seen under my specialty. Also, it will be easier for patients to schedule for 40-minute sessions, as this will be the only option on my schedule. This will make it easier for the front desk as they will not have to try to find 60-minute sessions anymore. With these changes, I am receiving more support from the front-desk and clinical exercise specialists to enable me to focus more on my work of treating clients & documenting their visits; spending less time on administrative and cleaning tasks. This change will also challenge me to find innovative and more efficient ways to communicate with my clients, as well as to treat their conditions. There will no longer be a push for me to move clients from 60-minute spots to 30-minute spots and my clinical judgment about the length of my visits will not be in question.
For each sentence I have here, there are 3-4 that I want to write to state my case, but this will only keep me stuck. As I want to get unstuck from my anger, resentment, bitterness and sadness, I need to find a way to look at this differently. Draft one of my rewrite: complete. I’m sure there will be more drafts to come, as I am in the process of submitting.