Are We There Yet?! Hiking at Half-Pace

To force the flower to blossom is to destroy its petals.

IMG_2275.jpgThis is my favorite time of year to hike. I love the lushness and fresh green of everything during spring. It gives me new hope of the things to come. Yet, on this day I noticed something different: the intent of my hike was to de-stress and I was rushing!

It was as if I were on a mission or death march. It was as if my internal cruise control had gotten stuck at 90 mph. The life events of April 2018 were in my rear view and yet they were still driving me, pushing me to keep moving. Don’t stop. Rush. March. Plod forward. Go. Now. 

I had begun to question my need to rush through the hike when I saw two snails on a tree. It was as if they were telling me I was needing to follow their lead…so it was then that I slowed down my pace. I imagined I moved with the grace of nature’s pace.

 

IMG_2279.jpgSoon after, I also chose to be as present as I could, to more fully receive each stimulus of my senses: to drink in with my eyes the beauty of the forest, even of the needle and leaf liter, with my feet to feel the sponginess and give of the ground, and with my ears to hear the song birds belting out tunes. Now as I type, I can remember and feel more than I would have, had I kept up with the death march.

 

 

As I look back, I see where I haven’t wanted to accept my life as it has been. Rushing wasn’t about the hike, it has been about where I am in life. I see where I have been rushing to get to the next level, and in doing so, I’ve been wasting energy on things that cannot be affected nor rushed, much like the blossoming of a flower. Today, I recognize that right now, this is where I am; like it or not. So what is the point of all of this struggle?

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These are lessons I’ve learned previously and much like the decaying tree, it’s all the same material – just now viewed at a new depth.

 

Namaste’

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  1. We are what we think Tiffany, and in this rush and tumble of our minds trying to decipher life we move at that same pace. Understand our truth and the view goes on forever. I’ll never forget the day I understood my life’s fear…suddenly I could ‘see’, and I mean really see what is there everyday, where before I was blind…literally. It was like the difference of night and day ❤
    Great post and a word for the wise, thank you for sharing ❤ 😀

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    1. Mark, thank you for sharing your wisdom here. It’s interesting, your comment about the view going on forever…my personal analogy is consistently an open meadow. Right now it’s a place where I visit, it’s not quite yet my constant.
      Hope you have a great day! ❤️

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      1. That is true Tiffany, we are human after all, that conditional creation that is constantly getting in our own way by being fearful and ‘holding’ ourselves in that blind state. But on releasing that pain we relax, stand in that truth we have found and begin to really see all around us. It takes time to integrate that truth, being constantly tested by events around us, and as time goes by we see that those fears are slowly dying and allowing us to be free…and so have more and more faith in ourselves and begin to see even more.
        My event was about ten years ago now and the initial impact was incredible, the let go of that fear was like a ten ton weight had been lifted and I could even feel my vision change as well as my bodies way of being. I literally found that I began to walk differently, hold myself more upright, and my mind was almost meditational as it no longer had that rush, rush of fearful thinking…and that allowed me to see instead of being sidetracked by life.
        And as time went by my fear did keep reappearing, but I realised it had lost its strength, I had understood the why I had held it, the reason it made me fearful, to such a point now that whenever it raises its head I can barely recognise it now, or even acknowledge its existence.
        And there is reason for that time factor, it is to allow us to see what we have endured by facing it and what it has taken to understand it and let it go. And with that action of integration of what we have now become, especially because it takes time, is to have an appreciation of what we have faced, creating a compassion and love of ourselves because of it ❤

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      2. Wow! That’s amazing. Thank you for sharing this, Mark. I get glimpses of what you’ve realized and lived. This is very inspiring and helps keep me on track. Thank you! ❤️

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      3. Mark, do you have any blog posts that speak to your awareness and the resolution of your primary fear? I’d like to understand more.

        You’ve mentioned this at least twice to me and this week I’m asking myself to understand my own primary fear. ❤️

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      4. If you go to my site and up on the top right hand side is a list of permanent pages. If you read them from the top down to the bottom it gives my understanding of my journey with that awakening in my journey.
        The main thing to look for within yourself is what do you feel, over the course of your life and your relationships, that always upsets you, makes you angry or feel belittled or hurt by those others in your life. You will find a common theme in them even though they may seem to come from different directions, they will still make you feel the same way. There is where you must look deeper within to try to find the real reason behind them.
        Initially we blame everyone else, but the truth is we cover them over because of their pain and hurt to us. It isn’t until we dig deeply to try to understand the ‘why’ and finally see through the walls we put up to protect us, and understand what is really the core of our pain.
        Just as an example, I had many walls up to stop anyone from rejecting me, and by going into relationships with a constant pulling chairs out, buying flowers, opening doors etc until they finally say ‘whoa, stop already, your drowning me in this love’, to which I would reply ‘how could you not want this attention’ and I then proceeded to point the finger at them and blaming them for the breakup. When in truth I was projecting my fear, afraid that they would reject me. I was creating that very fear by my action but in the beginning I just blamed them, but as time went by and after breakup number fifty seven I finally realised it was me. I even saw that I was judging them because they didn’t love me the same way as I loved them, expecting their love back like mine, but it was only driven by my fear of rejection. All of my actions were actually creating the very thing I was afraid of.
        In the end, and after much digging with an angel (and this human angel will turn up when it is time), I finally saw deep down what my fear was made of…I didn’t think my dad loved me, had rejected me and treated me in such a way that I felt abandoned, rejected, unloveable and felt a very strong low self worth because of this…of which became a part of me and how I dealt with everyone around me all through my life.
        It is a big thing to actually face, let alone try to understand just what the meaning is beneath it all. And there are many different ‘rejections’ in our lives and we hold many different coping strategies to live them. But they all come back to one thing, the love that we think we deserve or don’t have in our lives. We ‘know’ that this is always where we are at our happiest, and our lowest, and after each relationship we can only see that loss from the pain within.
        Understand that pain and it loses its power over us, it no longer matters simply because a fear is something we don’t understand. Understand it and we are free ❤ 😀
        I hope my journey can give you some guidance Tiffany, and find that understanding within yourself.
        Contact me if you require anything else, I would be glad to assist 😀 ❤

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      5. Mark, I feel this because I’ve lived it in my own way. The theme I’ve been seeing is that I fear not being important nor valued. So instead of seeking truth of my value from others, I’ve been giving this to myself. It’s really shifted my perspective this week and friends near and far have already taken note!

        I’ll check out your blog as you suggested. Thank you!

        And I’m sure I’ll be in touch. ❤️❤️❤️

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  2. Can really relate to this post. Nature is such an excellent reminder to slow down and to be with what is rather than forcing things to change. My Dad always used to say “Patience is a Virtue” and there are is some real wisdom in some of these old sayings.

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