depression – unfiltered from the heart

Expanding Horizons

This world is filled with hurt people who, in turn, inevitably hurt others. Whether it’s done consciously or not, it is contagious. Each time we can remove the barriers we have created around our emotions, we free ourselves (and others) from mental and emotional slavery; even if only by degrees. In so doing, we becomeContinue reading “Expanding Horizons”

Being Okay With Not Being Okay

I asked God what it was that I was missing as I was “doing the work” and yet felt so unhappy. My message was “to be okay with not being okay.” I needed to accept that sometimes it really is OKAY to not be okay. This year has had more than its share of heartbreaks,Continue reading “Being Okay With Not Being Okay”

blowing the ballasts: a return to buoyancy

metal vessel creeks, moans water seeps along interior walls, under benthic depths pressure builds, descending further, abysmic lightless no sight. ~~ releasing my breath in bubbles, nothing left to give, apathy sets in. ballasts filled with cold heavy water, the descent continues. ~~ like a wet blanket words and fires asphyxiated. hard to hear musesContinue reading “blowing the ballasts: a return to buoyancy”

the abysmal descent

the dive began over a week ago. moments of bliss intermix, Lucid dreams, sweet bliss Now seem just a memory. Diving headlong, how far Down the rabbit hole Before I forget how to find my way back home? ~~ The pressure of the Benthic zone presses On bones and ears. The pain, not quite excruciatingContinue reading “the abysmal descent”