So often it is in our darkest hours, when we are ready to give up and throw in the towel, that our faith in something greater is the weakest. When we need our faith the most, we abandon it and we abandon ourselves. Yet it is precisely when we are at our lowest point that we have the greatest potential to leap forward.
Just as a seed’s roots grow downwards before its shoot reaches skyward, we must root into the darkness to be able to grow upwards. Just as the seed knows where to go to find the sun, we must learn to trust our ability to find the light.
Each of us has an infinite capacity to love.
Yet we put rocks, sand and baubles in our jars
Out of fear, out of pain
Blocking our ability to fully receive
And acknowledge the vastness of our own greatness
Allowing the stories we’ve told ourselves
about why we cannot love
Gives them further solidity
Occluding from within the flow of love.
This truly is a labor of love,
Literally and figuratively.
For to clear the congestion,
these objections to love
Is to remove them, to inspect them,
To feel them, and allow them simply
To be, this is the lesson of love they were
Meant to be.
It is always our choice to see.
The fire in my soul is back on. You’ve been warned. I will not be held responsible if your ass catches on fire, so you might just want to don your asbestos underwear right meow.
(C) Tiffany Cara 2017
I didn’t want to be bitter
When Marriage vows dissolved
Yet that is exactly what I became
I hid it even from myself
Like a red tide, it was
Just below the surface
And that is my shame
For this, I have no one
But myself to … blame.
Accepting responsibility for
What I’ve created here,
I lift my new eyes to the horizon
Seeing all of life differently;
I can now choose from variety.
I am not my bitterness,
But I own that it is part of me.
The death grip it has had on me,
My emotions, and my nihilistic behaviors
Loosens. Icy tendrils may persist,
But my heart may once again feel its bliss.
When in the shadows
All can seem lost.
Just as the sun rises,
There is light beyond the dark.
Allow the dark to show you
For it is in the darkness
That we can learn the most.
(C) 2017 Tiffany Cara
You Don’t See Me,
because I hide my greatness in shadows.
I obscure your vision with
smoke & mirrors.
I fear you
because I fear myself.
I fear my own love
for its power is infinite.
So I block the road.
I stop the feeling,
just before it reaches
I turn away
for this mess.