Death – unfiltered from the heart

Breathe me

With each breath in, I choose life. With each breath out, I choose death for the things which no longer serve me.

This happened nearly a dozen years ago, yet still feels like just yesterday. Standing at the foot of his bed, i watched helplessly as he took some of his final breaths. he was surrounded by the code team, some peoples’ jobs merely the space they were holding. a 1st year student, i stood there inContinue reading “Watching him dying (graphic)”

Vampire Skin

Look away. Don’t see me For who I am. Your love is like sun shining On Vampire skin. Burning, Searing flesh. Boiling Steaming Evaporating. Death. Image google

Missing the Funeral

Today they lay his body to its final rest. The second father, Of the man to which I was Connected for half my life. To have known such a man for so many years, To never to have seen so much as a tear. My heart goes out to his, his family His mother, too.Continue reading “Missing the Funeral”

Questions, questions, so many questions

Does the fire fear its own power? Does the wave ask if it’s part of the ocean? Does the lake ask, “What is my purpose here?” Does the bird ask, “How do I raise my young?” Or does the chickless chicken feel like less of a chicken? Does the cloud ask what happens when itContinue reading “Questions, questions, so many questions”

What her death taught me (GRAPHIC)

Someone has to die in order that the rest of us should value life more. Virginia Woolf It was a year ago on my son’s third birthday that I saw her last. She sat in a booth at one of my favorite local eateries talking happily to her friends. Tired myself after a long dayContinue reading “What her death taught me (GRAPHIC)”

Walking in Another’s Shoes

“Could a greater miracle take place than for us to look through each other’s eyes for an instant?” -Henry David Thoreau The morning schedule was busy with patients who needed physical therapy reassessments and evaluations. This meant writing two notes per patient, testing each patient and “extra” brain work to analyze the test scores. The headacheContinue reading “Walking in Another’s Shoes”

Shadows of Death

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadows of death, I shall fear no evil. – Psalm 23 In Buddhism, Shiva, the creator and the destroyer, represents the process of breaking down that needs to occur prior to being able to build back up. Nature is filled with examples of this idea of deathContinue reading “Shadows of Death”