For as long as I can remember, I have sought for love. Perhaps it is the hopeful and “hopeless romantic” within (see Enneagram 4). There has always been this underlying feeling of being incomplete; an irredeemable deficiency as described by Ian Morgan Cron, a fellow “4”. In diving into this incessant need to be loved andContinue reading “The Fear of Being Loved”
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Catch 22: The Desire for & Fear of Connection
For as much as I seek love and call in the energy of a well-matched available lover, I also fear His presence in my life. In the past, feeling unworthy was part of the Catch 22, yet sifting through the muck I see more. For many years I’ve questioned the existence of an available and mortalContinue reading “Catch 22: The Desire for & Fear of Connection “
The Very Thing I Want Scares Me
The very thing I want, to me is so fucking scary. To breathe life into something that is bigger than me. To be valued & to value someone that is True. To be truly held & to hold truly. To be told & to tell Him there is more to do to be better; yet to beContinue reading “The Very Thing I Want Scares Me”
Falling in love
Like a newborn baby, I swaddle in love all of the parts of me that feel: vulnerable abandoned unwanted undesirable I wrap my heart around those pieces that feel: broken afraid to be naked, exposed or seen afraid to love…and to be loved…and to receive or give love. ~~~~~ With each moment that I allowContinue reading “Falling in love”
