guilt – unfiltered from the heart

Insomnia: The Pot of Guilt at The End of My Sleepless Rainbow

For the past few weeks my ability to stay asleep at night has been very much hit-or-miss. I have played with varying bedtimes, reducing my overall caffeine intake and screen/TV times at night, while increasing my night time meditation. I’ve also tried dietary changes including increased magnesium intake (through oil and citrate), and even takingContinue reading “Insomnia: The Pot of Guilt at The End of My Sleepless Rainbow”

Culture of Punishment: It’s a Shame

Motivation through punishment makes things harder if our goal is to become our greatness. Self-flagellation tears at our flesh. Wounds then need tending and time to heal. Furthermore, how can we climb the peaks of our greatest potentials when we have a backpack filled with shame, guilt and other “unpacked” emotions? Leave the kitchen sinkContinue reading “Culture of Punishment: It’s a Shame”

Letter to The Creator: Leap of Faith

Creator, If You created Everything and Everything is You, then We are all You. We are ALL One. If You are Love, then to Be is to Love. We are all cut from the same fabric, so although We can appear different and act different from One another Our origin is the same, You. You created Us, and gave UsContinue reading “Letter to The Creator: Leap of Faith”

Attention Seeking Part I

It is unceremoniously and without much ado that I share with you my desire for having consistent and continuous male attention. On the surface the attention is physical. Yet it is my deeper desire to be desired by a man who finds me spiritually and intellectually attractive, not just sexually or physically. After feeling thatContinue reading “Attention Seeking Part I”

Divorce: Emotional Aftermath

I didn’t say yes to later say no. Now the dissolution has been finalized. Unresolved issues bubble to the surface. Gone is the promise of so many dreams. 16 years of marriage; 14 celebrated. Like water held in your hand; all escaped. Sleepless nights. Feeling all alone. No shoulder to cry on now. Hard toContinue reading “Divorce: Emotional Aftermath”

Letting Go of Fears

It can sometimes be a challenge to dig under the veneer of our fears. There seems to be an emotional roadblock that can develop when we refuse to peer underneath the surface. On the other hand, freedom is easily granted to those who are willing to scratch the surface. Over the past weekend, I sawContinue reading “Letting Go of Fears”

Forty-eight Pounds

10 pounds of shame & guilt 10 pounds of blame 10 pounds of self-loathing & self-disgust 10 pounds of anger 8 pounds of sadness Saying hello and welcome to 48 pounds of gold in the form of self-love! Today, I love me. Namaste’ Image courtesy of dan at FreeDigitalPhotos.net

Giving the gift of giving

“Gracious acceptance is an art – an art which most never bother to cultivate. We think that we have to learn how to give, but we forget about accepting things, which can be much harder than giving…. Accepting another person’s gift is allowing him to express his feelings for you.” – Alexander McCall Smith, Love OverContinue reading “Giving the gift of giving”