Return to Innocence

There was something inside that I wanted to hide. The true name of what it was that caused my shame was unknown to me. I could see some of the situations from my childhood in which it seemed to be rooted. And I had spent nearly a decade tugging up various “weeds” to get toContinue reading “Return to Innocence”

Insomnia: The Pot of Guilt at The End of My Sleepless Rainbow

For the past few weeks my ability to stay asleep at night has been very much hit-or-miss. I have played with varying bedtimes, reducing my overall caffeine intake and screen/TV times at night, while increasing my night time meditation. I’ve also tried dietary changes including increased magnesium intake (through oil and citrate), and even takingContinue reading “Insomnia: The Pot of Guilt at The End of My Sleepless Rainbow”

Culture of Punishment: It’s a Shame

Motivation through punishment makes things harder if our goal is to become our greatness. Self-flagellation tears at our flesh. Wounds then need tending and time to heal. Furthermore, how can we climb the peaks of our greatest potentials when we have a backpack filled with shame, guilt and other “unpacked” emotions? Leave the kitchen sinkContinue reading “Culture of Punishment: It’s a Shame”

Shame to Blame

Oh wow! Amazing realization  Came to fruition A shame to blame myself For the actions of others Whiskey Tango Foxtrot?  Really, WTF?! GTFO!  Yet, guilty, all my life It was my fault if YOU did Something bad to me! Walking the thin red line  Of being good, of being chaste-like Of being fat and dressingContinue reading “Shame to Blame”

Blame

A head game One misstep  Begins head trip Where No one wins Beast awakens Blood-thirsty Eyes set on me Whips Chains Self-flagellation Castigation Pronation Loss of vision Flesh ripping  Burning  Bleeding Conceding  Little girl Blamed For sins  Upon own flesh By grown men No one wins Where  Head trip begins  One misstep A head gameContinue reading “Blame”

Value Unknown x Four

Putting the Damage On 2014.02.13 I told him I didn’t like cut flowers for the pain they must have felt. No, don’t buy me a diamond ring. No, I won’t wear white at our wedding. My worth the inverse of repleted; something he further depleted. At some point I died, no longer being seen. Related poem:Continue reading “Value Unknown x Four”

Shame: The Thief in the Night

If Wheaties is the breakfast of Champions, Shame then is the breakfast of the opposition. Shame robs us, blinds us, confines us. Whether we are aware of it or not; it takes from us our vitality, as if a vampire. yet it is us sucking our own selves dry. Shame about our bodies inhibits their peak performance; blocksContinue reading “Shame: The Thief in the Night”

Numbers: The Erasure

“three standard deviations” i am the normal to your standard deviation of 3. i love your flirtations, yet they trigger a lot of “unworthy” in me. i fear your love, your affection, your adoration. like water poured on rock, all is lost to evaporation. ~~~~ erasure since before we separated, parted in the night, i’ve been tryingContinue reading “Numbers: The Erasure”

The Weighting Game

So sad to see this beautiful woman, looking at her weight/her worth and being aghast…. The game where when weight you gain, you only lose your worth. The game where when weight you lose, you gain, maybe. Self-love, self-respect, self-acceptance can still be elusive, in skinny jeans. The game where your worth is inversely proportional toContinue reading “The Weighting Game”

Food Addiction: Eating as Punishment

As a young girl, I leanred to “use” food as a drug to supress strong emotions that were punished, heavily discouraged and suppressed in my family. The message was that it was not ok to emote, whether positive or negative. To carry strong emotions triggered an adult, the child was punished. Without the ability toContinue reading “Food Addiction: Eating as Punishment”

Healing Your Heart From Within

Decided to dance a little deeper in life, and wow can spirit dance!

bone&silver

True tales over 50

Phoenix Inspiring

Believe it's Possible!

WTFAI

It is a great mystery that though the human heart longs for Truth, in which alone it finds liberation and delight, the first reaction of human beings to Truth is one of hostility and fear! -Anthony de Mello

other mind press

...poetry and other musings

LoveIsConfusing

"Love Is LOYALTY, SACRIFICE and COMPROMISE."

ROCKY ROAD FAMILY

Our small family living in a 5th wheel following Dads work as a rock fall technician... what could go wrong?

Damon Ashworth Psychology

Melbourne Clinical Psychologist

Set Sail

Lets share a journey

The Dolly Mama

Words of HOPE and WISDOM for where your HEART touches your HOME

How I Lost My Chains

I've Learned The Most Unlearning Everything I've Ever Known

ignite with Thato

Unleash your Greatness

Write your Destiny

The Reader's World

iamacanaryinacoalmine

Reflections on transcending my diagnosis of a mental illness...

Healing Your Heart From Within

Decided to dance a little deeper in life, and wow can spirit dance!

Madly In Love With Me

understanding ourselves to be free