Unfiltered from the heart

floating on upward moving
currents & drafts
the body & mind become
free … weightless

with each in-breath
there is an upshift
in-spiration
with each breath-out
the energy flows
back & down
ex-piration

there is a seemingly ever present
& lingering dissociation
between myself & my body
when the going gets tough
& even when life lightens up
all of which can create
a further activation of
the dreaded dorsal vagal shutdown
(cue the ominous music)

remedied by sitting & falling
back into myself by simply
breathing slowly into the nasal passages
following the breath up, back & down
feeling, breathing & sensing
i can move back
back into the weight of my body
renewing the ventral vagal connection

while the threats have long passed
there are parts of the brain
still activated at long last;
bits
bits
who still believe the threats
are still present & clearly
clearly putting this being in danger
based on their summation &
preservation of the past
still activated, still activated
at long last

it can be a challenge to decipher
the difference between
the ambivert with a
slight proclivity
towards introversion &
the lingering effects of
an amygdala too early activated
the loops replay the events of those
seemingly endless trauma filled-days
without end & many a decade later

breathing out slowly
up, forward & out through
opening nasal passages
experiencing a moment of
pure breathlessness
the amygdala is briefly quieted
& i can feel into myself
just a little bit further

the numb bits less &
less anesthetized
with each breath more
completely felt
& realized

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