in the chemical mix
things can be easily missed
feelings suppressed with doses
of caffeine, once taken like a fiend
& now withdrawing, suppressive systems
no longer suppressing emotional systems
as the magical liquid no longer trickles through
an overloaded system – it is precisely then
when the overwhelm steps up its game
at first, it creeps in slowly
like a serial stalker in the night
a feeling undefined yet suppressive – easily suppressed
until … within a few nights’ time burgeoning & oppressive
once identified, a call, no a plea, for grace
keeps the overwhelm from taking over this place
yet at least for now,
it’s still taking up more than a bit of space
sinking back & down into myself
breathing in feeling myself breathing in
breathing out feeling myself breathing out
thank you Thay!
feeling all that needs to be felt – as much as i can
devour & allow in this quarter of an hour
as best as one can
holding the space within
allowing the emergence of the feelings to begin again & again
the feeling today, is a bit more industrial
calls for a more intense sound to play while i edit
in the background
yes, Trent, we will make it through – somehow
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1. the pull
2. the draw
3. the wave
4. the love
5. the push
6. the lull
7. the well
8. the hand
9. upward spiral
10. weightless
11. ever-longing
12. the hot seat
13. reluctant submission
14. the dive
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