Unfiltered from the heart

out of asking (you may say pleading) for grace
and developing (in)sights
there has sprouted a new mental judo art form
it is one of unraveling the beliefs
that i had once believed, yet that ultimately were untrue
(or at least are no longer truth)
this mental judo to which i’m referring
is the art of unbelieving

it feels like uncoiling of the very DNA
upon which so much of my-self has been built
some bits require extra time & patience to unfurl
some recoil & re-form even with LASER beam focus & scrutiny
whereas others unravel under casual curiosity

within the pain is the gem
the dross around it hides its intent
the things i’ve put in place to protect me from it
to get to it, one must break through
the untruths that keep it from
shining in the light of day

the pain is the lie told to ourselves
the untruths we believed because
someone we trusted thought they knew, too
or merely thought they were protecting us from … ourselves
we misinterpreted someone else’s thoughts about us

cheers
to the undoing
to the unraveling
to the unbelieving
of the untruths we took as canon

it’s no easy mission … yet it’s perhaps the most important
to lay bear & cut through the “uns”
gaining access to the gems
the gems that have always existed within

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